This day was one of the suckiest days of my highschool life. It all started during Math class (first period!).
We were answering an activity about our lessons, antilog. Then we were all concentrating when one of my classmates asked about something. Then our teacher started discussing how to solve it. (v_v) we were having antilog since last week--I guess--and some of us were furious, I'm one of them, because why didn't she discussed how to solve it last week or days defore!? We had a quiz about it yesterday, for Christ's sake! We definitely failed the quiz. Grrrrr.
After lunch was our Economics Unit test. Well, 2nd period after lunch, really. BUT it was shortened period. I wasn't able to study well the night before! Is it my fault that I couldn't concentrate!? T_T anyway, I suppose I would fail yet again. *sigh*
After that brain-juice-squeezing-test we had our PE. As usual, it was.....not really Physical Education. <_<
You, reader, might wondering why I titled this entry with it's title. Not that I want to die already and be in heaven. But, I want to be at a place where it's ideally delightful. I want to repress everything from my mind.
What I felt while I was typing my very first blog entry is getting worse and worse. The unbidden emotions keep on flowing every single day. It makes me was to cry or something. It makes me long for something or probably someone that would requite every negative emotion I have with something blissful or something that would make me think that the unbidden emotions are just pebbles that I can just step on and just ignore that I stepped on it because they are too small for me to deal with it as if it's a big thing. *grunt*
That longing gets stronger and stronger as the unbidden emotions gets worse and worse. It's like Newton's Law of Acceleration: acceleration is directly proportional to the net force. Where acceleration is the longing and the net force is the unbidden emotion. LOL. But, yeah, it's true.
Next entry would be the drawings I made last night.
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